Here I am wearing gloves and a mask mixing Lily's chemo medicine and having to give it to her when she looks all trusting and innocent-eyed at me as I place the chemo in her mouth and slowly give her doses...just seems so wrong!!!! To ease my guilty feelings I have to tell myself that this poison/medicine will help her fight the cancer but I just wish there was some other more humane way to fight this disease!!! I'm just amazed that she can still smile despite all that she has been through! She truly is a fighter!!!